Calming down

Day after day, I feel like I'm freaking out, or losing it.. I get so bored I swear I could die. I wander around the house like a lost puppy, trying to figure out what new project I could accomplish today. When I finally give up and crawl back into bed for the day, I turn on my favorite radio station. Country. Its like a melody to the soul. It calms me down, brings me back down to earth, gives me hope, lets me dream, and keeps me going. Who would have thought country music could help me so much. I could lay for hours, staring at the ceiling with nothing but my country music on. I feel like it is what has become of my life, but I am okay with it. Its a love. The other thing that makes me feel 10X better, is just the outdoors, even though the Canadian winter right now is rather depressing, I could lay in the snow for hours or play with my dog in the snow, and only be at peace, I could freeze to death outside, but Id come back inside with a huge smile on my face. Country music and the outdoors. My calming peace, not a bath or soothing music, not sleep or a nap, Country, and the outdoors, when you think about it, lots of people could agree. Its your way to know that everything is going to be alright, that just because today kinda sucks doesn't mean tomorrow will be the same. Just a country girl.. Whose an outsider. =)